Sunday 7 October 2012

fly with the wind

well i guess i quite long time i have not dance with my finger here... :) rick ryonne is back....
my konvokesyen day :)

tiada byk yg dpt di share... now for me..hanya menunggu masa utk konvokesyen.. weiii :)
i should thank God for what he has done n guide me along this ways... im nobody without bless from him... :) thank you god for guide me... along the journey i have been through i fell i still alone.. really now something just happend.. i dont know why..and where is my mistake but i guess it just flow from the life.. i want to understand it but i still can't.
am i that funny???
live with something unexpected in our live is just give us something new to learn from it right? for me it a "yes" i do learn from it. well...must be guess why i put the dog face at right side this "post" it cause it explain how i feel. why people always make fun of me? cause i was joker maybe! huh! but when it turn to my change...it i will turn the other ways... ahahhaa... well... last time i like one of my buddy post at fb.." dont give other your shit if you cant stand for other shit next time" ahahahahahaa well, i guess that is it... :)
will find our own way



friend :)

bout friendship stories, for me it still same and it gonna change after graduation day, it all because we need to find our own ways after this, it was sweet to remember our friendship last time, but now, i must realize and grow up,they will not forever with me, cause their also have their own gold and destiny to fullfill, i wish and pray for their success, especially for my two great buddy!! for me knowing them in my life was no mistake at all but for me knowing them is like finding a precious treasure in my life! cause i have learn and always make a new day. there are so unique in my life. i was once sad and sit at the outside of the corner before, but when im enter my university life and meet them i was learn more thing precious thing. for me their friendship for me there was no word i can describe :) they are great.
 "dear lord, please guide and watch for both of them,
bless their family and career,unto your hand i pray,
i beg for your forgiveness oh lord if i was ever make mistake,
 and make them hurt,though in my word,my action and in what i forget,
lord forgive me and bless them" amen.

finding jobs lorr
real life now for me :) strike to excelent :) 
when i was kids i always dream a good career and jobs so i can help my family. but looking all after this year, i still alone :) why? because it will be new begining after this. people come and by but me still here :)
i wish i have a happier family now :( but it just a dream in other life i guess. cause this upcoming konvokesyen day just a normal day, it has no meaning at all for me cause i have no perfect family to celebrate with...

though my dad will come but still he argue with my mom about my convokesyen day :( i was so sad but i try to hide it. i just go with the flow. cause i was strong enough be in actor, cause i was live in pain since small so i know how to smile beside my deep heart was crying. :) to cure this heart was "surrender all to God".

what next??? 



maybe this i will be i guess... lets see what happend after konvokesyen day.. :) me also dunno yet... i just surrender all to god... till here.. will meet after konvo. :)

Tuesday 5 June 2012

along the journey >upsi 2012< :)

It JUNE oleady... ahahaa sedar tak sedar banyak perkara yang berlaku sepanjang praktikal aq di sini fakulti muzik dan seni persembahan UPSI tg. malim perak.
 along the journey i hv been here.. it was cool and awesome.. just a little bit hot here... :)
not much has been happened.. all just go with the flow.. 
im start busy with work, teaching and share something new with upsi student here... 
lols.. the are so kind.. and great have been here.. these are some activity that has been us share together along the journey im here...
peserta bengkel tari kotemporari upsi 2012



yang sebelah atas adalah pic. masa 8-9mei bengkel tari kotemporari. peserta yang terlibat adalah pelajar sekitar upsi dan juga pelajar minor tari dan international exchange student from korea. it nice to meet them. yg sebelah kanan lak show masa 11 mei di dataran padang upsi sempena sambutan hari belia peringkat perak.. tarian yang dibawa adalah berkonsepkan 1 malaysia.. im proud to be malaysian. ^ ^





there are many more thing we have done.. im also has been actor for "teater produksi impak maksima---> hanturisme, walaupun latihan just 2 days... but i will gv my best.. byk lg kekurangan n i has oleady gv my best.. sory and i apologize if i have make mistake tym belakon.. but for sure it was fun n them warmly welcome me to join  the club and the mostly i have enjoys the moment been here ehehehe...

but now i just surrender all to god... cause i dunno what has happend to me.. i know there was nobody want to read and update this blog.. but i will always ready to take all the challenge in front of me.. me dun want to sad.. huhuhuhu i hope this sick will not getting parah... huhuhu i want to enjoys all my life.. :)

ow ya..  congratulation also to my best buddy!!! finally he gets what he want..he got taken to record some new album.. it awesome... wish i talented as him.. ahahaha just a dream! but im glad he get what he want.. thank god ... :)  sesungguhnya tuhan itu Maha Mendengar Dan Maha Baik... im glad he reach his gold... may his career will be blessed :) and me?? ahaha dunno yet.. i surrender all to god... may god bless my healthy :( dunno it getting worst or not.. urmmm. just surrender all to god.. :) apa pun dlm hidup ni kena senyum... pain>>> ahahahaa>>> mmg dr sulu suda aq kena tu susah.. it not "susah" oleady... huhuhuhu... :) kesakitan mengajar aq erti kesabaran dlm menempuh kehidupan.. :) 

Monday 27 February 2012

pain go away =D

thank god.. dalam x sedar dah beberapa bulan berlalu dan lembaran baru pun semakin ku hampiri...
btw... eloww guys... im back n here just a short story after few month i left my "journey to remember" blog.

i guess this is my year> year of dragon... i feel so happy n everything im do all just flow like a river.. thank god for the blessing.... :)

finally the pain that i felt before just go... n i dun evn want to remember it.. after me speechless without word from da incidence day.. i felt so down.. n everyday that i face all is not well, i dunno where is my mistake> suddenly the problem come n hit me just like hurricane , just like i said on my last blog. im feel so lonely and really2 sad then i surrender all to god n let the time heal everything....
after a few month then i get the answer slowly what was happened in my life... it all because the shittt word >" misunderstanding"<  huhuuuhu... 
confuse


the true finally has shown... but i dun even care and want to memorize it.. it just give me more pain when i remember the memory....
for the truth yessssss i like you!!!
but that does'nt mean i want you... i understand u just wanna be friend with me and i appreciate it...
but dont give the damn shit to me!!!! u make me arkward with the situation n make everybody look at me just like it was my fault , damn i hate that situation... everybody look down at me
i dunno what to says..... yess everybody started point da finger to me....
luckily i still few fwen who still believe in me...

friend> huhhh!!!! it hard to says.. yess it was right when everybody says dun even fwen with "back stabbing"
heyyy hooo!!! buddyyyy!!! i use to trusted u before and respect u...
after > incidence my respect for you has gone far mild awayyyyyyy
i dont blame you.. but why... when it come to hard time...
why you --------------> dun face to face with me n ask me!!!!
it not hard to says----------> are you couple with him? !!!!!
it easy right???
i know both of you has know each other before just by the time both of you have't meet...
i either dun know the story....
that doest matter.... it not my problem...
the problem is... without any ending conclusion somebody just text me says that
 "i dun like you, and dun even think about it, and i never couple with you, dare you said we was couple".................. > shitttttttttttt!!!!!!! im speechlessssssss!!!! 
BY THE TIME I WAS ASLEEP , I HEARD MY HP WAS RINGING AND I READ THE TEXT.. DAMN IM FROZEN >SHOCK> WATSOEVER.....
what?????




my tears fall down, by the time i dunno where to discharge , i confuse with the prob.
then i cool down myself by pray to god....
then the drama was started.... no matter how many time i explain the truth people would not believe it..
it just getting more worst.. he started to curse me at fb...
i just can see and smile... it so k.. i dun mind.... and more hurt me when the "buddy" just pretend seem just like the are nothing happen" shitt man... honestly that time was my final year and there are many problem pass by... but thank god finally i can face it with patient...


hahahahahahahaha!!!! lol
that was my last year story.. it just a flash back...
and i want to buried the story and remind it was one of the precious story in the life
it teach me how to face the different people with different background....
 > now me feel so happy.... i started to open a new better life...
i have a new gold to reach...
> and i realize there a still left friend who trusted n know my pain...
> and from the pain story.. may god bless and forgive the sins against me...n lord forgive me for i have sin and make them hate me....
i want to let go everything.. let make the better life...

"as i grown up , it get me more to know the thing in the world"


just to enjoy my day... this song make me happy and calm... =D











Friday 13 January 2012

2012... dragon year.. ^^

fuhh.... pejam celik..pejam celik...its 2012.... my last zodiak year is 2000.. n now its my turn back... goshh...im 24 uda rupa2nya..ahahahaha..... ^^

year of dragon 2012
urmm...
 tahun baru lembaran baru... 3 tahun hampir habis.. n my next adventure is L.I.... ^^ aper lagi latihan amali la.. luckily
i got practical at upsi... fuhh... ^^ like my last2...post in this life i owez want a something new experience.. cause? ahahaha simple ma... it make me grow up and im so excited to learn something new... 


fakulti seni & muzik upsi... ^^

wish me luck all... upsi... c u soon..ehehehe :)

Tuesday 6 December 2011

thank you lord for a precious day...

nothing much to says.. but 1 thing.. im very thankfull to Gods..cause 1 more time... he gave me change to live a more better life.. huhuhu 23yr oleady past... thank gods...

Wednesday 30 November 2011

journey of life.. ^^

a second switch minutes, the minutes were changed hours, days and hours is change d days appear months .. months passed then it will be exactly the year ...

in the 11 months was not aware that I went through this year ...
too many things that happened ...
1st .. family matter ...
The good what if I have the power to be there for both mother and father .. but fate has determined that the matchmaking mother and my father soon ... they have separated .. butI still feel lucky because they are still responsible ...

2nd journey to live a life ...

"Somehow, not only for Christmas
But all the long year through,
The joy that you give to others
Is the joy that comes back to you.
And the more you spend in blessing
The poor and lonely and sad,
The more of your heart's possessing
Returns to you glad."

Monday 28 November 2011

thank you lord... ^^

2day i fell so eppy... ehehe thank god 4-every breath u give me.. n thank 1 again gv me chance to live a better life 2day..... lma dh x post.. tergerak lak nak share.... 2day... after preview my final projek dpn lecture..for my final task in dance..

while im sitting alone at da corner.. i see all my dancer production... i dun know why... suddenly i fell very calm n my stress n pain go away.... that is the blessing from god i guess :) ... thank you lord.. they work so hard... n try da best while preview... n yet they still got smile n laugh... n 1 more thing that i learn 2day... every single work we do..it must be patient and sincere... they we will get back the blessing... ^^